My life in 2025

The saddest thing about my dreams is I am all alone in them. No friends, no fixed abode, I simply drift between new schools and new jobs, always an anonymous imposter on the road to nowhere.  I worry about my soul's track record. They say friends and family await on the other side but that must be conditional on the life one has built. My life is one only of broken dreams, severed friendships, missed appointments.

Some days I do so many bitty, little jobs and errands for Rihanna that I find it hard to get anything else done. But in a way, that's an excuse. I feel like my hopes are more neglected than our cheese plant and summoning enthusiasm about any sort of life plan is ever more difficult. If life is this stale and unprofitable at 49 heaven only knows what sort of entropy awaits in my senior days.

Rihanna fell asleep standing up. There was a crash and a thud and I sprang out of bed where I was just dozing off myself and found her on her derriere in the corner. It took a long time and brainstorming to get her up. At no time did an ambulance seem like a very serious option. Against all advice of what one should do after a hip op she heaved herself up with a bit of help from me but she is easily 20 stone and I was only playing an auxiliary role. The fact that she has restless leg syndrome, is practically a narcoleptic and is exhausted from not being able to sleep for long are all a potent combination. The cat just wanted some treats. Our little dramas are no concern of hers.

A very quiet day at home, the definite highlight of which was watching the Traitors, a rare foray into television. I said Yin would go first, even though I didn't see her as much of a threat and so it proved. Watched her later on the podcast and she was a delight - a great loss to the show- and hopefully will find somewhere to shine. The traitors have gotten off to a bad start and it only looks like the Liverpudlian girl has a chance of pulling through based on the first episode. It seemed to me that most of them missed a trick not jumping off the train. Surely those three who got off will be back? The series has somewhat lost the element of surprise by pulling a similar trick in series 1. Unless it is a double bluff? I think they really need to shake it up this year. It is getting a bit samey in some respects. Some of the challenges dragged a bit last year but overall the show turned out to be every bit as good as season 1 and perhaps a bit more so. In other news I was able to tes...