5th and 6th

Yesterday I wrote yesterday's post- that seems to be what stands out. I didn't go out because I was resting my ankle, I was not very industrious. Too much chess and doom scrolling. 

Rihanna sent me out today to pick up the rest of her meds and a Covid test kit. Thus I saw the friendly young pharmacist who always says 'ta-ra' and one of the young girls in the convenience store. These routine faces are not ones I ever get into chitchat with although today there was something that almost approached it.


Girl- Would you like a bag?

Me- Not unless it's free.

Girl- I can't give it to you. I couldn't give them away before. (Or similar words, meaning ironically she couldn't give them away when they were free, I think).

Me- That's all right, I can manage.

I did ring mum around 8 in the evening. She is bitter and goes round in circles. This make me feel guilty and so it goes on.

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